The turmoil of a Warped Fisherman

X-Mas Time

2007-12-20T08:21:00.000-08:00

So it is almost X-Mas....lovely....I hate this time of the year. I realized yesterday that I haven't been truly excited about X-Mas for many many years. It just makes me realize what I do not have.....I see all my friends happy.....

I would be tons happier if we could skip X-Mas entirely, but still get the time off.

Yeah I am moody lately....always happenes this time of year...whether or not I am on happy pills.

I just wish.....

What I wish for is too personal to put on here.

2007-09-13T09:13:00.000-07:00

So I have been out of the AF for almost 3 months now......I have to say it was very very tough being without a job after I got so used to having a paycheck.

I am finally starting to get caught up on the bills.

I found a job working as a contractor for Sprint....the pay is awesome.

BS

2007-04-20T08:52:00.000-07:00

So after the Cc was relieved I was offered another chance and I turned them down. I am just tired of all the BS and just can't handle another 3-6 months of more BS.

On a good note my terminal was approved to start 1 June. So my actual last day in the USAF is 17 june. WOOHOOOO!!!

Otherwise everything is just peachy.....I hope to go out and fish for a cobia.....i would love to get one of those.

Good news.....maybe

2007-04-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

As of 0830 16 April 2007 my Commander Lt Col. ****** was relieved of Command. Still no idea if this will help me or not.

Looking like they still want me gone and it looks like I will be screwed out of a few weeks too.

Originally I thought I could start my terminal on 1 June, but it looks like they want me gone completly on 1 June. So I might be leaving nearly 3 weeks sooner then I thought.....

Da Bird

2007-04-10T13:55:00.000-07:00

went fishing this weekend and didn't catch anything but a sunburn and a cold

But I did do a first for me....

As I was casting out I noticed a bird in the cast path and I had already released, well I actually hit a bird in mid-flight....it was awesome and very funny. The bait hit the bird and not the 3 oz sinker I was using. The bird was just fine, just a bit startled and rather pissed.

---Hot off the press!!!---

2007-04-02T08:11:00.000-07:00

This just in,

Sir,

Lt Col ****** has approved your request to apply for early separation under the Force Shaping Program, with a separation date of 1 Jun. Please visit the MPF soonest to apply and get the paperwork started. If you have any questions or concerns, please contact your CSS.

Have a wonderful weekend!

******, Capt, USAF
Section Commander
96th Communications Group
Eglin AFB, FL 32542
DSN: 872-****, COMM: (850) 882-****
"Be the change you wish to see in the world." - Mahatma Gandhi

Jerked around

2007-03-30T12:10:00.000-07:00

Well it is nearly April and I still have not heard when my final day in the AF is. The rumor mill says 1 May 2007, I am pushing for 1 June 2007, but I do not have a clue. I cannot get a straight answer out of anyone.

On a lighter note my paperwork has been submitted to the VA so I should hear something in the next 2-3 months.

Otherwise I am just fishing and waiting......it is amazingly but what little initiative I had for my job has disappeared, I don't even give a rat-shit anymore. I physically have to force myself to come to work every morning......this being jerked around is driving me more nuts.

2007-02-26T10:45:00.000-08:00

Ok here is the scoop...

Basically in a 2 year period I have failed the PT Test 4 times in a row.

After the 3rd time I recieved an LOR or Letter Of Reprimand

After the 4th time I recieved another LOR and a UIF or U (something) Information File

Today I test again my waist went from a 44 to a 42. Although this does show a marked improvement it is a little too late. It is my fifth failure. The CC can offically boot me out in 30-60 days it is up to her. More then likely she will do exactly that.

Suprisingly I am not depressed, a bit pissed off and frustrated....But just know this is my fault and no one elses. I cannot and will not blame anyone for this. They are not black balling me or what ever you would call it. Everything done so far has been by the book and they are trying to help me.

Something funny happened on friday. I went to see that Captain who is in charge of the PT program, anyway she was reviewing some paperwork and mentioned that she wanted to schedule me for all sorts of classes abotu managing my weight and eating healthy etc. I have been to them all before. Anyway I looked her straight in the eye and asked "Why Bother?" "I mean you are going to kick me out anyway, why bother wasting the goverments time and money?" That wasn't well received....and I was scheduled for the classes anyway...

2007-02-23T10:47:00.000-08:00

So it has finally come to pass.... I have been given the ultimatem....

I have 3 options

A-- I can get out in the next 30-60 days

B-- I can get out in Aug 07 during the 07 rollback

C-- I can get out between now and sometime soon but risk losing a stripe...

basically I am being forced out....

After much deliberation, I decided to go with option C. So that I could explore all my options including getting a medical discharge. But it is looking like I will be a E-4 soon though :/

Turmoil 2

2006-12-18T08:42:00.000-08:00

Oh and to top off all that, I have been feeling like crap and I am worried about flying hom on thursday. My left ear is so clogged that it is painful. I forgot to call the doc office this morning but I will do so tomorrow.

I hope this week is better then last.

I started SWG again for the 3 rd time over the weekend. They have really changed that game, and in my opinion for the better. I actually enjoy it again. Unfortunalty none of my online gaming friends will play it. but then to them SW is just a series of movies.

I really look forward to seeing N. and his family. It has been too long. I look forward to any fishing we may do. It isn't the actual catching of the fish that I like it is the convo's we have.

I just thought of something. Imagine fishing while stoned.......your already relaxed and BSing about life then you introduce weed in to the mix....man the convo's you could have. except the muchies would suck......bait ain't good eating for us

Turmoil

2006-12-15T12:59:00.000-08:00

This last week has been very tough for me. I have found that I like to use blogs or journals as w ay to express my feelings, and I can do it here since I only know of one person who may read my ramblings and I am not worried if that person thinks I am insane....we all are a little insane....

The week started out with much turmoil between people I greatly admire and I saw things being said which I couldn't ignore but I couldn't respond too. I was greatly affected by the turmoil. I saw people getting hurt, I saw people reacting in anger, I saw people just being plain nasty.

What gets me in all this is those people are role models and acting like children. These people were making comments for the general public to see, not hiding the nastiness at all. They had no problems airing others dirty laundry but refused to let their dirty laundry be aired.

These people are looked up to whether they like it or not they are "masters" of their chosen path, but ignored their training and reacted, instead of using their training. They preach and preach to you and us, but when push comes to shove they can't be relied on. I know we are all human and we all make mistakes, but when you make the same mistake over and over and you do not learn, you are no "master" of anything, well you are a "master" of being a complete asshole.

Yeah I guess you could say I am hurt in all this. I am not sure who I can trust anymore. I know I am learning to trust myself, but that is a daily thing.

Then to top it all off I fucked up badly at work. I went off half cocked without all the information tried to screw my troop with talking to her first (not sexually) and got made to look like a complete fool/idiot/incompetent asshole and I deserved it. I lost the trust of a good troop, and lost my self respect. When she tried to talk to me, I clammed up and made things worse. No I am not depressed, just irratated at myself....I know I learned something from it, but damn that is not much comfort.

Then last night I thought I had the hook up at the Holiday Party. A Beautifull girl that I have seen around in my Group and I have spoken with a few times, well anyway we seemed to hit off setting up for said Holiday Party. I was really looking forward to it. Well the party rolls around and she shows up looking absolutley gorgeous and all of a sudden I didn't exist. I could not get her to say 1 word to me, I tried to catch her eye and got a very cold look in return. So I figure she is there to hook up with some one else and no big deal right? Earlier that day I asked a friend about her since he seemed to know her, well he asked a coworker for me ( I was standing there) and yes she was single and the coworker said she is loopy and he stays away from her.......right........As we were all leaving I saw that coworker get into a car with her and started making out with her. The dude is Married, and his wife is gorgeous.......I don't get the mentality

Oh well such is life

more later......I need to calm down again

Pier Fishing

2006-12-01T08:30:00.000-08:00

I decided last Friday to hit the Peir. So I went and bought a bunch of cigar minnows (frozen) becuase last time they were getting hit as fast as you threw them in the water and I bought some squid becuase pins love dem some squid.

So I get out there and the peir is packed!! I find a reletivly clear spot and set up. I throw 1 rod out with a float and weighting down the bait so it sits about 6 feet under the surface and the other I rigged for bottom fishing. I rigged up my medium ugly stik for pins and threw that out there. Oh I was bottom fishing with the Tiger/VS combo.

As I was waiting for the poles to get hit....yes the pins weren't biting at all....I noticed that an old couple about 20 feet were nailing the sheepshead, on cut shrimp......I usually always have shrimp....but not today...becuase last time the minnows were hitting........figures.

well after a few hours of catching nothing, I noticed that alot of people cleared out at the end, so I packed up and moved down there.

Oh wait I have to interject a complaint and a cool thing that did happen. Well first the complaint. Why the hell do parents allow their kids to run amok on a very crowded peir with a pole rigged with 3 treble hooks??? I watched this kid hook a couple people (clothes only...thank god) and then he casted so bad he threw continously over my lines and would bitch to his parents that my lines were in his way......he did the same 5 times to the elderly couple who were nailing the sheepshead....the father and mother were just as bad.....the mother watched me float rig a minnow out and looked at me and casted over my line causing me to reel back and do it again..........I was about ready to use the family as shark bait.

Ok the cool thing....I had the Van Staal in the water and a few guys walked by on their way out. I heard one say to the other " My god that is a 600 dollar reel!" Then both looked at me with awe....it was soo awesome. No I am not getting a swelled head, I am just proud of that reel.

well anyway back to the fishing report.

to make a long and drawn out story short, all I caught for the rest of the night was a small blue that was put on the international for bait.....he didn't even get nibbled. So he is now sitting in my freezer awaiting the day he becomes chum...

equipment

2006-11-21T13:15:00.000-08:00

Take care of your equipment. I bought a Penn 850ss last night at a pawn shop and this morning I decided to clean it up and restring it. well when I opened up the case it was litterally full of corrosion/salt/sand etc. It has taken me 3+ hours of constant scrubbing/scrapping/brushing to get 90% of the corrosion off. After all the work it turns out that the reel is busted....I need to order new parts :(